Noel Clarke has broken his silence to deny allegations of sexual harassment and bullying.
The Doctor Who star, 46, saw his career left in tatters following the accusations from up to 20 women, but police are haven’t brought any charges.
And he has said in his latest interview that the claims left him planning to take his life with a hunting knife.
Speaking to Mail on Sunday, the actor said: “I needed to do something unsurvivable. I was reaching for a book and the knife fell out of my pocket. My one-year-old said, ‘Daddy, why have you got that?’
“I said, ‘It’s just to pick the dirt out of my nails…’ and he said, ‘Oh, OK,’ and somehow the ordinariness of that snapped me out of it.
“Up to that point, I had been waiting for the right moment to kill myself. I was out of here. Done. I didn’t about anything. My mind was destroyed.”
Noel Clarke has spoken out about allegations made against him
He admitted that at points in his career he might have been “over-tactile”, but he continues to deny ever trying to kiss or grope an unwilling female.
He claims he is flirtatious and sometimes made “saucy” comments but denies his actions should have “warranted the destruction of my life”.
He spoke about losing everything and explained how “in my heart and my head it has damaged me in a way I cannot articulate”.
The police probe into the allegations made against him was dropped after the testimonies from the women were ruled to not be enough to meet the threshold for a criminal investigation.
Clarke continued to insist he’s not a predator and said he has been crossing the road so he didn’t have to walk behind women since he was 15 years old.
He added: “There has been no arrest, no charges, no trial, no verdict but I have been criminalised.
“If we don’t need judges and juries any more, if we only need social media and the broadcasters, then what world do we live in?”
Noel Clarke and Adam Deacon in Adulthood
The decision to drop the case was criticised at the time by co-founder of Reclaim These Streets, Anna Birley.
She said: “Reporting experiences of sexual assault or abuse is difficult, and so it must be hugely upsetting for women who have been so brave and spoken out to hear that the police don’t believe their testimonies are enough.
“Our criminal justice system fails women time and again. Women deserve to be listened to and believed.”
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